14 inches 😉

It's now been 1 whole week and a bit since my first chemo. Ryan thinks it's gone quick. I'm not so sure ha. I've had a few people asking how I've been feeling and the only thing I can liken it it is a reaaaally crappy, long ass hangover. I've just felt sicky and headachy basically and slept and slept and slept. The meds I've been given to control the symptoms seem to be working (I've not been sick whoop!) which is definitely a positive but I've still felt rough as a badgers arse, I think that's to be expected though. I have literally been pumped full of actual cytotoxic (cell toxic) poison.

My birthday! 🎈

2 days after the poison perfusion was my 29th birthdaaaaay. And yano what, given that I was 2 days post poison, I had a lovely day. I also slept most of it which I also meant poor Ryan didn't even manage to get out of working for the day! I was spoilt rotten with everyone's kind gifts, cards, cakes and visits! We've literally had soooo much cake to eat over the last week as we ended up with so much and in a horrific out of character twist of events - I haven't fancied cake. How gutting!

Not my most flattering photo - but F-it, its my birthdaaaaaay

Chop Chop!

With the first chemo under my belt its also been time to get my hair chopped. As soon as I knew my hair was going to fall out I was adamant that I did not want my lovely long blonde hair coming out in clumps and knotting everywhere. Id arranged to have to hair cut shorter this week so that I have control and to me, shorter hair coming away doesn't seem as bad as long hair coming out. Can't tell you why, but that's how my brains working! My lovely hairdresser Naomi was due to cut my hair on Thurs (26th Aug) and was sadly ill and therefore unable to cut my hair. I was then rescued on Friday by the wonderful Adam who did the honour of cutting my hair for me. Early on I'd decided that I wanted to donate my hair to The Little Princess Trust (a charity that accepts hair donations to make wigs for children with Cancer) and so I've had my hair cut into an inverted bob so as much as possible could be donated. Well an astounding 14 inches has come off!!

It was an emotional day getting my hair cut shorter but I am taking comfort in that some lovely little person will hopefully get good use out of my hair. Over the weekend my scalp has become itchy/irritated so I am thinking that its the beginning of the end and anticipate fully shaving it off over the next week or so. My hairs been a bit of a div (irritated) since having it cut so we've been joking that I look like a greasy Jack Grealish at the moment so please remember that if you see me this week, its just me, NOT JACK GREALISH. I have my cousins wedding on Friday the 3rd and just want some hair for that and it can come off after then!

I bought a lovely turban from a seller on Insta called Eadiechops that has these really cute bows you can interchange so I'm actually a bit excited to get trying them out. I bought some headcoverings from Amazon the other week and it was a bloody disaster and I had to send them back so I'm relieved I've managed to find something that looks nice and isnt typical cancer patient / hamish chic / handmaids tale fashion!😶

Hell Week

Me and Ry have dubbed this week hell week for us as its such a busy week for us this week. I've got 3 hospital appointments at various hospitals this week with one of them been a mini operation to put my port-a-cath (little port under the skin in my chest where I will have my treatment and bloods instead of them having to dig in my arms as I have near to zero accessible veins in my arms to the mo!) in. The appointment I had today was interesting if not a little awks. I went for a echocardiogram (heart scan/ultrasound) and the way they do them is the most peculiar thing ever. Imagine laying on a led on your left hand side, with a gown on (so boobs hanging out) covered in lube/gel while a man sits next to your bum and reaches around to scan your heart. They have to get certain angles and positions to be able to see certain anatomy but I was weirrddddd. Deffo cemented that I did right in choosing Diagnostic Radiography and not Cardiac Physiology!!!! Too much touching and snuggling for me.

And on that note...

If you've got a spare minute please check out https://gofund.me/515146d4 - My lovely friends Tracy & David will be Braving the Shave on Sat 4th Sept to Raise funds for both MacMillan & CoppaFeel! Any donation would be greatly appreciated.

Lots of Love

Kirst xx